I’ve been cringing about this post the second Meg Biram of MIMI+MEG emailed me about taking part of this amazing movement of bloggers called “Things I’m afraid to tell you”.  You might have already seen Jess’s Things I’m Afraid To Tell you post that Ez turned into a “movement” a little while ago. Meg decided to challenge myself and other bloggers from the fashion, lifestyle and food blogging world. With blogging, facebooking, tweeting AND instagraming it’s pretty easy to make a life of a blogger look perfect! Because we choose to post happy, pretty and exciting things that will be pleasant for our reader to enjoy! But quite honestly that’s not the case every moment of every day.

This past year has been one of the hardest years for me…it’s been quite a bumpy ride. I’m not going to get into that today… but I do want you to know that my life is not perfect, especially not this past year. But moving that all aside, I have to remind myself that a lot of amazing things and opportunities have come my way in that same year.  I am so beyond thankful, feel blessed and thank God every day for them. But every day is a new challenge, with a struggle that needs to be faced, a hug is needed, a tear.. okay TEARS will be shed and I need to recognize that not only is my life not easy but neither is anyone else’s. So here I go… here are the things I’m afraid to tell you.

Well maybe I should get my number one right out front and centre. I try to hide my “afraid to tell you… and everyone else” things pretty well. I’m going to have to dig deep because it takes a lot of me to share things that I’m dealing with or just want to keep to myself. My number one  is I don’t like to show people when I’m feeling weak. Even though I deal with things that bring me down every day, I’ll play the “everything is perfect card” pretty much to everyone. I do open up to my closest friends time to time. But quite honestly I don’t like to show the world what I’m really feeling!

Okay so now that you all know that I guess we can get straight to business. Here are a few other things that I’m afraid to tell you.

- I typically don’t like opening gifts that I don’t know what they are. It takes me about half an hour to process if I really like it. Though I’ll always tell you that I love it the second I open it. But really I’m processing if I’m going to return in, regift it, where the gift  receipt is….or if I really love it. Most of the time I end up loving it! :)

- I’m terrified of failing. I get anxiety about not succeeding and doing well. I make myself go over end beyond, though if I end up failing it will bother me for days, weeks, months and sometime years.

- I’m very honest with my relationships with friends. If I don’t feel comfortable about something I will tell you. Most of the time it is the most awkward conversation ever and I feel like crawling into a hole and never coming out. But at the same time so happy that I can talk and figure things out to make a friendship stronger.

- I do get jealous. I do have to remind myself to take my jealousy and flip it into grateful thinking. To remind myself of all the things I am thankful for and to SNAP OUT OF IT. ( It works, try it!)

- I am terrified of childbirth. But cannot wait to be a mom.

- It takes about 5-10 photos before I like one of myself. I have a slightly droopy eye when I smile…that can ruin a photo in my opinion.

- I exercise 3-5 times because I love feeling fit and healthy and cannot stand the feeling of my pants being tight. I do yoga, run 10km, work out with my trainer and do cross fit. Loosing weight does not come easy. I have a total sweet tooth and own a water bottle that says it all: ” I love running because I REALLY, really, really, really, really… LOVE Dessert.”  I just recently learnt that I have a wheat, gluten and diary sensitivity and a whack of other foods too! I’ve been trying to eliminate these foods from my diet for the last 4 months and feel 100 times better! It’s been hard but so worth it. That all being said I will eat a great big burger with fries and cold mojito on a hot summers day… with no regret.

Okay there you have it!  A little bit of myself that you might not know about. Now I have to go click the publish button… oh dear, here I go.

Have a look at what other bloggers are afraid to tell you:

Cassie: Coco + Kelley / Christine: Court & Hudson / Caitlin: Sacramento Street / Roxy: My Cup of Te / Crystal: Blog / Meg: MIMI+MEG / Ashlina: The Decorista / Katie: Modern Eve / Erin: Apartment 34 / Erica: Design Blahg / Victoria: Vmac & Cheese / Christine: Miles to Style / Franki: Life in a Venti Cup / Sue: The Zhush/ Erika: Radiant Republic / Gabrielle: Savvy Home / Naomi: Design Manifest /Tobe: Because It’s Awesome / Becca: {extra}ordinary wonders / Lynzy: Sparkling Footsteps / Hitha: Hitha On The Go / Sarah: Note To Self / Liz: So Much To Smile About / Sarah: Blogstar / Alissa: The Goods Design / Jessie: Style & Pepper / Erika: Small Shop Studio / AV: Long Distance Loving / Maggie: Maggie Rose Blog / Nicole: The City Girl In Me / Priscilla: The Best Laid Plans / Jen: Concrete Jungle DC / Janelle: Food Fashion Fitness / Natalie: East Coast Chic


  • the sparkle (@erincg)

    major PROPS TO YOU, monika! admitting weaknesses for all to see takes GUTS – we all have many of these same insecurities – especially as bloggers! *big hugs* x


    p.s: did you go to a naturopath to find out about your food allergies? i’m looking for a good one in vancouver.

    May 14th, 2012 8:33
  • Jen

    Wonderful post! I can totally relate to many of the points; showing weakness, failing, childbirth (yikes!) and having to take quite a few pictures before finding one that I’m happy with :)

    I also have a dairy sensitivity and I’m in the process of determining if I have a gluten allergy. I have a couple friends who have Celiac Disease and although it’s not easy for them, it’s nice to know there are more and more products available now that are diary and gluten free!

    Love your blog!
    Much love,

    May 14th, 2012 8:34
  • ashlee

    i’m terrified of childbirth too but am now 6 weeks away from conquering that fear – was terrified of pregnancy and hating every minute of it but i can honestly say i have never been happier emotionally, spiritually and in my marriage :)

    May 14th, 2012 8:39
  • Natasha Fatah

    Seeing these posts on several blogs today.
    Thanks for sharing this with your readers.


    May 14th, 2012 9:18
  • Jessie

    Happy to come across your blog today through participating in this project! So glad to have found you (and have gotten to know the real you right off the bat), and can’t wait to follow along!

    May 14th, 2012 10:50
  • Katrina

    Monika….. I love all your bogs but i have to say this was my favorite . Way to go and face your fears. xx

    May 14th, 2012 11:30
  • Hitha

    I’m in full agreement on items #2, 5, and 6! Thanks for sharing – it was terrifying to write my own post as well, but felt so freeing when I did! Been a fan of your blog for a while, and thanks for sharing your post.

    May 14th, 2012 18:04
  • Mary @ Delightful Bitefuls

    Beautiful post! xo

    May 14th, 2012 20:17
  • Heather

    What a great idea for a post. I’ve not read any others but really enjoyed yours! I definitely can relate to most of yours. I’m such a perfectionist too and HATE to see myself in photos…and the irony is I too have a fashion blog!


    May 15th, 2012 4:51
  • BiblioMOMia

    My guy is the same about presents–I’ve learned that his sincere appreciation the next day is the best response ever. Be proud of that.

    Childbirth is scary. But you forget it (seriously–yay for hormones!). Or else we’d never have more kids, and humanity would be doomed. Seriously, you’ll be just fine–amazing, even. Having a doctor for a husband is the best gift for a pregnant mama. Don’t let it scare you away–the reward is pretty amazing.

    I’m trying to get up the guts to write one of these, but I don’t know if I can. I sincerely applaud you–and admire you even more for all that I know about you now!

    May 15th, 2012 8:05
  • Anna @ IHOD

    Thanks for posting Monica! Whats great about these is that you feel like you really get to know the blogger behind the blog! I had a hard time posting mine too but so thankful I did.
    Cheers to imperfections and being human!

    May 15th, 2012 12:58
  • Shawna

    wow – that was good. Hmmm. maybe I need to do one of these posts! Love Love! Xo*S

    May 15th, 2012 13:17
  • Stephanie Jean

    LOVE this post! Thank you for being so real – you are a huge inspiration to so many including me xo

    May 16th, 2012 12:41
  • heidi

    thank you for sharing and being honest! lovely post idea a great way to keep it real. :)

    xx heidi
    life full of loves

    May 16th, 2012 21:56
  • Adrienn

    Thank you! Feeling jealous is something I have to face time and again as well. As for the childbirth part, don’t be afraid, for me it was a one of the most precious events of my life, it was short and the pain was a good sort of pain and totally manageable . Just trust your body, it will know what to do. Do not listen at all at horror stories. (I’m not telling this to brag but just to say that giving birth can be not hard at all. )

    May 24th, 2012 16:21
  • Alia

    I know this is an old post but I loved reading it. I totally relate to what you said about taking 5-10 photos of yourself before you get one you like. Its more like 20 for me lol! I just uploaded pictures of myself for the first time onto my blog for a product review and I cringed looking at them.

    March 28th, 2013 19:54

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