Things I’m afraid to tell you. Wave 2.

I’ve been cringing about this post the second Meg Biram of MIMI+MEG emailed me about taking part of this amazing movement of bloggers called “Things I’m afraid to tell you”.  You might have already seen Jess’s Things I’m Afraid To Tell you post that Ez turned into a “movement” a little while ago. Meg decided to challenge myself and other bloggers from the fashion, lifestyle and food blogging world. With blogging, facebooking, tweeting AND instagraming it’s pretty easy to make a life of a blogger look perfect! Because we choose to post happy, pretty and exciting things that will be pleasant for our reader to enjoy! But quite honestly that’s not the case every moment of every day.

This past year has been one of the hardest years for me…it’s been quite a bumpy ride. I’m not going to get into that today… but I do want you to know that my life is not perfect, especially not this past year. But moving that all aside, I have to remind myself that a lot of amazing things and opportunities have come my way in that same year.  I am so beyond thankful, feel blessed and thank God every day for them. But every day is a new challenge, with a struggle that needs to be faced, a hug is needed, a tear.. okay TEARS will be shed and I need to recognize that not only is my life not easy but neither is anyone else’s. So here I go… here are the things I’m afraid to tell you.

Well maybe I should get my number one right out front and centre. I try to hide my “afraid to tell you… and everyone else” things pretty well. I’m going to have to dig deep because it takes a lot of me to share things that I’m dealing with or just want to keep to myself. My number one  is I don’t like to show people when I’m feeling weak. Even though I deal with things that bring me down every day, I’ll play the “everything is perfect card” pretty much to everyone. I do open up to my closest friends time to time. But quite honestly I don’t like to show the world what I’m really feeling!

Okay so now that you all know that I guess we can get straight to business. Here are a few other things that I’m afraid to tell you.

– I typically don’t like opening gifts that I don’t know what they are. It takes me about half an hour to process if I really like it. Though I’ll always tell you that I love it the second I open it. But really I’m processing if I’m going to return in, regift it, where the gift  receipt is….or if I really love it. Most of the time I end up loving it! 🙂

– I’m terrified of failing. I get anxiety about not succeeding and doing well. I make myself go over end beyond, though if I end up failing it will bother me for days, weeks, months and sometime years.

– I’m very honest with my relationships with friends. If I don’t feel comfortable about something I will tell you. Most of the time it is the most awkward conversation ever and I feel like crawling into a hole and never coming out. But at the same time so happy that I can talk and figure things out to make a friendship stronger.

– I do get jealous. I do have to remind myself to take my jealousy and flip it into grateful thinking. To remind myself of all the things I am thankful for and to SNAP OUT OF IT. ( It works, try it!)

– I am terrified of childbirth. But cannot wait to be a mom.

– It takes about 5-10 photos before I like one of myself. I have a slightly droopy eye when I smile…that can ruin a photo in my opinion.

– I exercise 3-5 times because I love feeling fit and healthy and cannot stand the feeling of my pants being tight. I do yoga, run 10km, work out with my trainer and do cross fit. Loosing weight does not come easy. I have a total sweet tooth and own a water bottle that says it all: ” I love running because I REALLY, really, really, really, really… LOVE Dessert.”  I just recently learnt that I have a wheat, gluten and diary sensitivity and a whack of other foods too! I’ve been trying to eliminate these foods from my diet for the last 4 months and feel 100 times better! It’s been hard but so worth it. That all being said I will eat a great big burger with fries and cold mojito on a hot summers day… with no regret.

Okay there you have it!  A little bit of myself that you might not know about. Now I have to go click the publish button… oh dear, here I go.

Have a look at what other bloggers are afraid to tell you:

Cassie: Coco + Kelley / Christine: Court & Hudson / Caitlin: Sacramento Street / Roxy: My Cup of Te / Crystal: Blog / Meg: MIMI+MEG / Ashlina: The Decorista / Katie: Modern Eve / Erin: Apartment 34 / Erica: Design Blahg / Victoria: Vmac & Cheese / Christine: Miles to Style / Franki: Life in a Venti Cup / Sue: The Zhush/ Erika: Radiant Republic / Gabrielle: Savvy Home / Naomi: Design Manifest /Tobe: Because It’s Awesome / Becca: {extra}ordinary wonders / Lynzy: Sparkling Footsteps / Hitha: Hitha On The Go / Sarah: Note To Self / Liz: So Much To Smile About / Sarah: Blogstar / Alissa: The Goods Design / Jessie: Style & Pepper / Erika: Small Shop Studio / AV: Long Distance Loving / Maggie: Maggie Rose Blog / Nicole: The City Girl In Me / Priscilla: The Best Laid Plans / Jen: Concrete Jungle DC / Janelle: Food Fashion Fitness / Natalie: East Coast Chic